I am so scattered. I am so out of balance. I am so unfocussed. I can’t think. I can’t write. I can’t pray. I can’t worship. I can’t be me. There has to be something more. The status quo makes me sick. Who in their right mind puts new wine into old wineskins? Everyone wants new wine, but no one wants new wineskins. Certainly, no one is willing to get rid of the old ones. Who should want new wine skins when they already have perfectly rotten, dry rotted, cracked ones that don’t hold wine and haven’t for years?
Isn’t there more? Isn’t the God I know so much bigger? Isn’t the God I know so much better? Isn’t the God I know so much more beautiful than anything I could ever imagine? Then why am I stuck? Why is my life so ordinary? Why am I surrounded by the mundane? Where is the majesty? Where is the splendor? Where is awe? Where is the grandeur? Where is the beauty? Where is the glory? Where is the sacred and the holy? Where are you God?
Lord have mercy.
Christ have mercy.
Lord have mercy.
Amen.